What Was God Thinking?
A few months ago, I felt moved to ask God a question. As I was praying one night, I couldn’t help but deeply wonder, “What was God thinking when He created me?”
So… I asked, “God, what were you thinking when you created me? Like, really… Why me?”
Then I sat still and listened… And listened… And listened… And nothing too groundbreaking really came—At first.
After I went to bed that night, I had the dream that would be the driving force behind kingdomcascading.com. Then, traveling home the next day, I was just SO excited… And all this joy seemed to hit me out of nowhere!
Finally pulling up to my house a few hours later, I found myself completely in awe over the starry sky. I honestly can’t remember another night where the sky has been that purely clear… With the stars shining so intensely.
I got out of my car and stood there for at least ten minutes—Just looking up and smiling at how completely beautiful it all was. In normal conversation with God, I spoke out loud and said, “God, You knoooowwww… It would be reallyyyyy cool if I could see a shooting star tonight. I haven’t seen one in a while!”
Instantaneously, and I mean instantaneously… *boomp* there goes a shooting star!
And then, I kept envisioning God… I saw Him looking down from the sky and laughing like any excited father would. Except, it was so much sweeter.
Of course, I know some will say it was coincidence, but I KNEW God had taken his finger and knocked a star out of the sky… Just for me!
As I climbed in bed that night and burrowed under my comforter, I heard God ask me to ask Him again… To ask Him what He was thinking when He created me.
I asked Him again, and suddenly this is what I saw:
I looked like a toddler in God’s lap—He was huge! Sitting with Him on His throne, He had one arm holding me securely, and with the other He was pointing. His body language was so incredibly animated; He was so incredibly excited! While pointing, He said, “Whoaa, look! Isn’t that cool?!”
He pointed at several different areas of heaven, each time with this growing, explosive joy…
Then He looked at me… Not the “me” on His lap, but me now. With kind eyes He whispered, “This is what I was thinking when I created you, Morgan. I didn’t want to continue spending my days alone… I dreamed of a daughter who I could share all of the beautiful things I created with. It makes me so happy…”
That day was the absolute… No questions asked… Hands down… Happiest day of my life. And not because of a boy, or grades, or an accomplishment, or Fancy Q’s… But just simply because I knew God loved me. Not like I had “known” before because years of Sunday school taught me about God’s love… Now I knew deep within my soul and spirit; God’s love was everywhere I looked and everywhere I went…
Somebody’s got to know tonight that God loves you. YOU.
His love… It’s real. He fulfills you; Nothing else ever will… No guy or amount of money or jewelry or shoes or success or status will ever come close to comparing.
I’ve got to ask you… Do you truly know what God was thinking when He created you?
Ask Him. He will show you, I promise.
“I pray that you, being rooted and firmly established in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the length and width, height and depth of God’s love, and to know the Messiah’s love that surpasses knowledge, so you may be filled with all the fullness of God.” – Ephesians 3:18-19